After 12 weeks from my last blog and I am here again. It has happened so many things in these 12 weeks. Do you still remember my previous blog about going back to Malacca to start semester 6 ( Year 3 Sem 2)? But now I am at my lovely home, not in Malacca anymore. Why? Before the festival of Hari Raya, our government has allowed the university to give the students who want to go back to their hometowns to celebrate Hari Raya. And I am one of them who wants to go back even though I am not the Muslim who will celebrate Hari Raya, hahaha!
Many students will be going back, including my housemates and my coursemates. And we have decided not to go back to Malacca anymore since we never need to go back to our faculty for the face-to-face lecture. The cases of covid-19 keep increasing and are now currently in MCO 3.0. Then you are sure curious why I go back Malacca during March......Our faculty has made an announcement and mentioned that the students who will be doing the IDP must come back to Malacca, and yes, we just followed the announcement to go back...We all felt like we got deceived. Why I will say so? It is because I really don't know I went back to Malacca for what.
We just stay in our rented house and attend all the online classes like we did in our home. I think it is better to stay in our home because it can save money!!! In Malacca, I have to think about what I want to eat/cook, when I have to wash my clothes, etc. But, I cannot deny that I can hang out with my friends because we stayed in the same rented house for 2 semesters and didn't meet each other. I also can play badminton with my friends, seniors, and lecturers and make new friends. All of them are so friendly.
As you can see, I am a person who loves to play badminton very, very much!!! (*actually, I quite miss those friends who played badminton together in 2019. That was memorable and cannot be replaced :( )
It was so many things I have been through in Malacca. But I can't speak out all one by one...It was too long to talk about it, hahaha! But I am glad I have such friendly housemates from another faculty. Two of them come from Ipoh, and all of us are Perakian xD I still remember one of them who called CaiNi is SHINee's fans!!!! Btw, her bias is Taemin, and my bias is all of the members ^^. She has invited me to watch the Taemin Beyond Live together. The entrance ticket almost costs RM200 ><. And that time is the last we interact with each other because she will be going back to her hometown with EnYi on Wednesday morning.
Okay~Now, I am currently in my sweet home, which has been a few weeks since 7 May. Time flies, and now it is Sunday, the last day of week 12. It still left 3 weeks to go before my final exam. As I feel, the time really passes so fast in one clip eye. I still have many things not yet settled, including my assignments and especially the IDP technical report. Even though our prototype is done but our technical report still progressing. Actually, we can accomplish the report early, but I am so lazy and procrastinate. I felt so sorry for my group leader because she has done many things, including software and hardware. And I felt I am so useless and don't know anything about it. Those feeling hit me so hard as time passed. I have been feeling very insecure and nervous recently. I am not wise, and all the things I did are not as good as my friends did. I also scored a bad result on the mid-term test. It is pretty sad and disappointing. I can say that the condition for me right now is the downhill. Everything is unsatisfying and unexpected. It might be due to my lack of discipline, laziness and do not have good time management. What I did for my public speaking this afternoon was not in my expectation. I was tense before that. I have dreamed I had done this public speaking assessment in my dream. I felt so tired, and my brain would explode when I woke up this morning. I was given the title to discuss the best ways to protect the environment, but I cannot talk well. Many points come to my mind, but when I want to start to speak, all the points cannot speak out due to my nervousness. Haih...I can't score a good grade for this subject already.
Comes to an end for this blog post. What I want to express is no matter what you did, please don't compare yourself with others like what I did. I used to be unhappy and unsecured every day because I unconsciously compared myself with others. When I saw others did very well in the particular things and when I look back to myself...The things that came to my mind are "why I cannot do so well like them? Why I am so useless until small things also cannot be done well? why and why?". I cannot sleep so well because I can't control myself overthink about that! Too pity for me. Live like a slave. Min Yue, please stay strong and live in your own way and own lifestyle. Don't bother how people live in their way. Everyone is unique and different. I really wish you could live in your own style one day and not impact by others easily. I know you sure can do it. Believe in yourself, ok? I know it is tough, but there is a way when there is a will. Every cloud has a silver lining. You will succeed one day eventually!!😇💓
